this christmas
23 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
So, it’s Christmas Eve. Well, not YET Eve, but pretty much the next best thing. Christmas this year doesn’t feel like it usually does. I saw a question on Twitter asking the world if they felt Christmas this year or if everyone was getting too busy already. I wouldn’t say I got too busy–the days of Christmas are just really off in 2011. Not to mention, there’s world war 1 happening at home and the peacemaker is now in Canada. There’s not much to look forward to at home; it’s just kind of stepping on broken glass right now. Things are still being glued back together…or taking another form all together.
Work has been fun. I said the same thing last year about my old company, I know. I guess I’m optimistic in that way–ironically. But I’ve managed to get a glimpse of expectations during the 3 day planning session and coming from a place with no sense of direction, I say this time’s doing much much better. I’ve got no reason to screw things up here coz they’re providing me with almost everything–tools and support. I’ve got no other reason than to make it happen. So 2012, get ready! 
I’m being followed around by that idea. It’s been crazy this December. I don’t know if I’m over thinking it but seriously, I seem to encounter it everywhere. It’s practically feels like it’s speaking out to me or something. And today I really experienced something weird with it. It slammed right into the middle of a precious moment and for the first time, it came through. It normally doesn’t happen in those situations but it did, and the scary part was, I felt that surge of emotion run through me. My mind digested it even in that moment, prodding me to ask a very random but loaded question. I caught myself before the momentum rolled down even further, but he picked right through. And heart-wrenchingly enough, he released words that zeroed in exactly on what I was thinking. It sent shudders down my spine, having that millisecond of a connection on such a bittersweet thing. Am I ready to deal with it in 2012? Or am I going to continue at this rate?
Better prepare my best of 2011 soon enough.
Merry Christmas!
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